Guilt is eating at me like a starving rat

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Originally Posted by stillseekingtruth

I gave myself to Christ and the church (meaning the LC) to go to a denomination is worse than pursuing on my own. It’s like getting a divorce and not being allowed to ‘remarry’ because the ‘divorce’ wasn’t legit or hasn’t ‘gone through.’ Deep within I still hold onto that ridiculous belief that the LC is the only way. I don’t even know why. It’s truly an enigma to me- these thoughts that consume and contradict

Two issues here: -

(1) What is the basis (in the bible) for 'giving oneself to Christ AND the church' ?
Ephesians 5:3
This is a great mystery: but I speak concerning Christ and the church.
In context: -
For no man ever yet hated his own flesh; but nourisheth and cherisheth it, even as the Lord the church: For we are members of his body, of his flesh, and of his bones. For this cause shall a man leave his father and mother, and shall be joined unto his wife, and they two shall be one flesh. This is a great mystery: but I speak concerning Christ and the church. Nevertheless let every one of you in particular so love his wife even as himself; and the wife see that she reverence her husband.

Romans 12:1
I beseech you therefore, brethren, by the mercies of God, that ye present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable unto God, which is your reasonable service.

Marriage and divorce is between a man and a woman.
Not between a christian and a certain 'church'. Regardless of whether a 'certain church' is the only way or not.
(In the old testament scripture, wife and divorce is mentioned in relation between God and Israel. Pls correct me if I'm wrong here.)

II Corinthians 11:2
For I am jealous over you with godly jealousy: for I have espoused you to one husband, that I may present you as a chaste virgin to Christ.

Christ and the church is not married yet. It will happen as written in the book of Revelation. Revelation chapter 19.
(No mention of divorce happening between Christ and the church, correct me if I'm wrong).
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