My Story

Leave, as your true heart and soul is prompting you away from the non truth towards your higher less dense truth.

I was raised in it. I was a burning young person on fire for the Lord until the idea of arranged marriage seemed unappealing then kind of horrifying. Left at 18. Now 43. Still recovering from the lords recovery. And it was never my choice. It was highly abusive for me to be raised in a female hating shaming guilting and disrespect culture of hate. All unseen and energetically coded and unspoken. Your mind has been brainwashed not to think. You hear the entire anxiety of the group. I had all those same thoughts you listed. Let them give you orders about your life through your mother who already gave all her power away to be run by the elders. All major life decisions.

And the elders will encourage you to do slave work and you and all the female slaves called saints will provide service to the men by scrubbing toilets, cooking for them, Attending numerous meetings including the practice of pray hating behind your back under the guise of fellowship and any deviant behavior or with regards to decorum or personal style will be gossiped about shamed and punished secretly behind your back while proclaiming the love for OLJ to your face. The sisters do this. They were the meanest women I have ever met in my life. My worldly girlfriends where kinder and nicer. If I wasn’t 100% obedient I would be torched in the lake of fire not meeting the oppressive de facto standards for a meek soft spoken mild mannered spineless obedient and unspoken slave sister also called a saint...and bearing children for Christ and the church through an arranged marriage to a brother potentially also not my choice. Are you kidding me? also to grow the attendance numbers for mr lees minions to be able to have a flock to control and rule over and of course cash flow in on including encouraging you to give up all Natural heart desires like making a great life for yourself.

Mr. Lee needs to sell more books beyond the grave! So I was harassed my 18 years of life to buy more books and take constant holiday trainings and give up 100% of my confidence and be an unquestioning Sheeple. I was silenced. Disrespected, belittled, guilted shamed all energetic and unspoken. It was horribly confusing. I thought I would die if I left. Why? Because there is a dark satanic program that makes everyone think the same when they leave. Why would they care if you left or not if it wasn’t a cult needing to merge and suck your soul as you trauma bond with the group.

And you will be seduced by the community with love bombing until the subtle dividing your heart mind and soul up into tiny pieces where you will be so confused at the end you will 100percent not trust yourself even when and after summoning the courage to leave. I say leave and Be free!

The energy of the lords recovery is as follows:
Looks good on the outside.
Nice food and comfortable community.
Love bombs feel great By the cult members.
Till you realize it’s a slow moving seduction.

Bible in the front and believe me you will get the biggest psychic attack of your life when you leave. I experienced the most painful energetic attack. In my state a kid just left and suicided himself a year ago. It so bad all the church kids should do a class action lawsuit against them and their parents. I pray for your recovery from this very dark soul sucking bible thumping cult of really mean people who all play really nice. Behind closed doors the pain anxiety and isolation and wounding exists.

This is my personal truth and hopefully not as bad for you. I spent $250k on healing complex PTSD from that place. I pray for peace love and liberation for all all church kids.

[Trapped]

Unregistered,

Thanks for sharing your story. So many things you've said make me desperate that somehow members, and particularly church kids, still stuck in "the Lord's recovery" could get help and get out.

I think there are a fair amount of people who leave the local church either with PTSD or with complex PTSD. Is there anything you can share about your process of healing that might help others who are stuck and spinning their wheels and can't seem to get to a place where they feel normal and not just barely making it through each day? With complex PTSD there is much more than just a cognitive component. Simply being removed from the environment or intellectually comprehending things won't bring the healing that is needed, because the wounds are harbored by the whole body and soul. I think many people probably languish in a grey zone, not knowing how to get real help. If you have any advice, or recommendations, or personal experiences of what helped you, it may be valuable to others reading or lurking.

Trapped

[aron]

Originally Posted by Unregistered

It was highly abusive for me to be raised in a female hating shaming guilting and disrespect culture of hate. All unseen and energetically coded and unspoken. Your mind has been brainwashed not to think. You hear the entire anxiety of the group. I had all those same thoughts you listed. Let them give you orders about your life through your mother who already gave all her power away to be run by the elders. All major life decisions.

I've been active on this discussion forum since its inception, 2008. At some point, I wondered, where are all the church kids? They are silent. Thousands have passed through childhood there.

Then I realized, they got their voice taken away.

I'm so encouraged to see some start to speak up. May many, many, many get healed. Thank you!

[aron]

What Is Spiritual Abuse?

The term, “spiritual abuse” has slowly made its way into contemporary Christian discourse over the last twenty years. Although the term began to appear in literature in the 1990s, (The Subtle Power of Spiritual Abuse, Johnson and VanVonderen, 1991) the Bible talks extensively about the subject. Spiritual abuse often occurs along with other forms of abuse, such as sexual, emotional, and physical.

Spiritual abuse has been defined as "a kind of abuse which damages the central core of who we are. It leaves us spiritually discouraged and emotionally cut off from the healing love of God" (Recovery from Spiritual Abuse, Juanita and Dale Ryan, 1992). In a position paper, Humphreys wrote in 2018, “Spiritual abuse is a form of emotional and psychological abuse. It is characterized by a systematic pattern of coercive and controlling behavior in a religious context. Spiritual abuse can have a deeply damaging impact on those who experience it. However, holding a theological position is not in itself inherently spiritually abusive, but misuse of scripture, applied theology and doctrine is often a component of spiritually abusive behavior." (Oakley, L & Humphreys, J; 2018).

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