Probably should have made this earlier

[Ohio]

Originally Posted by clever sister

I kept thinking of John 10:28
"I give them eternal life, and they shall never perish; no one will snatch them out of my hand."

I felt like, because I had left the LC, that meant I was outside of God's hand, then was God even real, because he promised to not let anyone be snatched out of his hand.

It's interesting though, since getting in touch with others who have left the LC I feel like my faith is being restored. I realise that the LC was not where God wanted me, but I still have issues, I don't know which teachings the LC taught are true and which I need to reject, and I still have some fundamental doubts about the bible.

And I feel like maybe the Lord let me have a time of not calling myself Christian so I could somewhat heal my personality, to recover who I am. I've made mistakes in this time, in rejecting what LC taught I sometimes went too far the other way, but I felt it in my person when that happened, feeling not guilty that I had broken a rule, but feeling that I had somehow betrayed myself. There was a process I had to go through to learn to trust that feeling.

But now I finally feel at peace with who I am as a person and how I am living my life. I think the Lord is trying to heal my spirituality, which might be a process to take many more years.

Thanks for sharing your story. Let me tell you and every former member of the LC, God is not mad at you, He is mad about you! He uniquely made you and loves you dearly.

What a tragedy that some small segment of the body of Christ would forfeit their rightful role in preaching the gospel and caring for God's people, then elevate themselves as something unique and exclusive becoming puffed up with pride, and then degrade into some aberrant sect holding its people in fear.

I contribute on this forum solely because people got hurt in the LC. Many of them leave the faith when they leave the LC, and that is truly tragic. It has been rightly said that our most valuable treasure on earth is our faith, and that is exactly what God's enemy has come to steal and kill and destroy.

Sister, you will never be outside of our Shepherd's hand! I encourage you to read John 10 again, and believe every word.