My Journey to the Local Church, and beyond...

[ZNPaaneah]

Originally Posted by NeitherFirstnorLast

I was ....I don't know if admonished is the right word, or attacked, by a sister last night. It wasn't the first time it's happened really, with this one. Somehow she makes assertions and, when I offer a different word, she gets very... agressive. I don't think I come across as offensive, and yet she seems very offended. Then she goes away and comes back and apologizes. Lord help me, I don't mean to speak anything but what I have seen; and if I am the one who is wrong, won't You show me that, Lord? Lord Jesus, I've asked You... begged You, to keep me in the Truth. Lord, I need You to wash me and preserve me and to convict me where I am wrong. Lord, I need You to silence me where I must be silence, and give me words to speak where You would have me speak. Please Lord, I feel so isolated from these others. You I enjoy, but where is Your Bride of Worth? Where is the fellowship I want so much to enjoy? What is going on?

The one thing that I enjoy when attacked like this, and I don't mean to sound harsh, is the fellowship of Christ's sufferings. Many verses come alive "father forgive them, for they know not what they do", or the verse in Galatians where Paul says he did not waiver for even an hour so that the truth of the gospel could remain with us. I will say from experience that while under the attack I read the Bible more, and with more prayer. One habit I had was to start reading Galatians chapter 1, sometimes by the time I finished the book I would feel better, if not I would continue, and usually by the time I finished Ephesians I would feel better. If not, I would continue, the worst it ever got I went through Colossians. But, these incidents turn you to the word and prayer more than anything else can.