Did you also have a difficult childhood in the LC?

[aron]

Originally Posted by Unregistered

... my parents were so into it they weren’t thinking about how to engage or teach me, they were too busy feeding themselves.

Agreed. The whole thing is a crass, manipulative ego feed. Once you see it, it's so obvious.

It's all about you and your subjective Christ. Your experience, your enjoyment. Notice how these subjective ephemera are externally manipulated by people with control issues.

They get you to feed on your ego, while they set you up. I was in a college conference with Ed Marks, and he was talking to some young students from MIT, in front everyone. "You guys from MIT.. man ... you are so smart! You have courses in nuclear reactors! I mean, wow...incredible!" And they were sucked in. He was puffing them up, building up their egos, just to use them. So obvious, in retrospect. It's all about you. Until it's about the Big Boss (or the Body, or the Oneness, or the Ground, or God's Move, or whatever Boss is pushing today as a stand-in)

I was love-bombed at first & it was clear instantly that I was better off than 50% of the church members. Because I was a male, not a flighty female. No sirreee! I was a "serious brother". And of course I bought into it, thinking I was "the best of the best". They slathered my ego with love and I bought it. And I didn't think, Why did they just laud Dora Yu and Peace Wang and Ruth Lee and Margaret Barber, if sisters' public function is so deficient? No, as long as the sisters were down, by extension I was up, so it seemed. That "warm glow" suppressed my critical thinking.

And so on... the repetition, bringing you to an altered, suggestive state. Another red flag, today. Look at any HWMR and one 'special word' or phrase is repeated. In the meetings if you repeated the 'special phrase' you got 'more God'.

Information control. "Oh, we don't talk about that." Etc.

I was a naive college student, though legally an adult, and should have known better. Mea culpa. I feel awful for the 12 year-olds who no choice in the matter.