My Walk With the Lord--Struggling but Praising!

thisovercomer · 05-17-2010, 09:32 PM

My walk with the Lord started many years ago before touching the Local Church. I was, like most people I have met in the LC, a catholic. Many times over the years people have questioned if I was truly saved before coming into the recovery, but I can testify that I was. Eventually, I came to understand that I had “learned” everything I could as a catholic but there was a true longing and desire within me. At the time I didn’t know what this desire was about, I guess I would describe it as an empty, life sucking hole. There were many things wrong in my life at the time I came into the recovery. The curious thing was that outwardly everything seemed fairly “right”. So, I don’t think people would have guessed my turmoil, but I knew it existed. By a series of incredible coincidences I met the saints at a local church. I was invited to a meeting. I was immediately turned off by speaking of the saints because it seemed so foreign to me. However, my mother, a strong catholic, thought the speaking was based in reality. Therefore her encouragement led me to explore the church more in depth. For a time, I had one foot in the recovery and one in Catholicism. Eventually the Lord gave me light to see that for my own personal growth I had to leave all ties to denominations. I openly embraced the LC and even though at first calling someone a “saint” seemed really weird, I progressed to understand that it actually applies to all who are separated out of the world and are called into God.
I have enjoyed my time in the LC church for many years but recently the Lord has once again called me out for my own personal growth and to continue forward in seeking His fellowship with believers without denomination archetypes.

When reading some of the threads here in this forum, I truly understand your pain. For me, I am coming to grips with the fact that I agree with the theory of the LC but not with the practice. So I am praying with the Lord to guard my spirit and lead me to Him continually that I would not become embittered in any way. I know a lot about bitterness in my lifetime, not always my own, but still affected by the results of it. I am praying daily that everything I have learned in my walk with the saints of the LC would not be in vain. I am praying for the Lord to rise up in all of us that we would search Him out first, and that should I be so fortunate, the Lord would bring saints (true saints) those who seek Christ first into fellowship with me.

This forum is apparently very cathartic for venting the frustration, and I thank all those saints who have voiced their fears because without that voice, I would have thought myself alone, shallow and duped, not by the saints but by Christ Himself. Why? Because when your whole being has been set on Christ, when our whole resolve is to live Christ, finding that there are Pharisees in your midst is so difficult. But I believe now, with all my heart, that the Lord has asked me not to judge them, but to instead pray for them. In my experience Brother Lee was right in stating that our natural ambition is truly our biggest curse. I pray now and always that the Lord take away anything ambitious about my nature and replace it with more Christ. I am privileged to have come out of the struggles into resurrection life, all the while experiencing Christ.

Recently I have considered more and more what Paul struggled to say to the Corinthians, Galatians and Ephesians. In everything I am so struck by his integrity and his unwillingness to be moved off point just to accommodate others. In Paul’s writing I am learning just how low and meek I need to be in order to become inwardly strong.

I really enjoyed this portion of the word today. I hope it touches you saints out there. I am here searching for the oneness of fellowship in Christ. I am not here to provoke, damage or struggle ambitiously. I just want to share my Christ with you and eagerly await your Christ to be shared with me. I believe no matter what our past experiences have been, the one thing we all know is that Christ should be our life and when He is not, we experience an emptiness that only He can fill. Not only can fill, but should fill.

So this is what I read today and I hope it encourages your spirit to rejoice and Praise!!!! May we all endeavor to glorify the Son through our speaking.

1 Cor 2:11 For who among men knows the things of man, except the spirit of man which is in him? In the same way, the things of God also no one has known except the Spirit of God.
12 But we have received not the spirit of the world but the Spirit which is from God, that we may know the things which have been graciously given to us by God;
13 Which things also we speak, not in words taught by human wisdom but in words taught by the Spirit, interpreting spiritual things with spiritual words.
14 But a soulish man does not receive the things of the Spirit of God, for they are foolishness to him and he is not able to knowthem because they are discerned spiritually.
15 But the spiritual man discerns all things, but he himself is discerned by no one.
16 For who has known the mind of the Lord and will instruct Him? But we have the mind of Christ.

To whatever and through whatever the Lord has brought us, may we come rejoicing and in Praise!
Amen Saints may the Lord’s grace be with your Spirit.

05-17-2010, 09:32 PM	#1
thisovercomer Member Join Date: May 2010 Posts: 8	My Walk With the Lord--Struggling but Praising! My walk with the Lord started many years ago before touching the Local Church. I was, like most people I have met in the LC, a catholic. Many times over the years people have questioned if I was truly saved before coming into the recovery, but I can testify that I was. Eventually, I came to understand that I had “learned” everything I could as a catholic but there was a true longing and desire within me. At the time I didn’t know what this desire was about, I guess I would describe it as an empty, life sucking hole. There were many things wrong in my life at the time I came into the recovery. The curious thing was that outwardly everything seemed fairly “right”. So, I don’t think people would have guessed my turmoil, but I knew it existed. By a series of incredible coincidences I met the saints at a local church. I was invited to a meeting. I was immediately turned off by speaking of the saints because it seemed so foreign to me. However, my mother, a strong catholic, thought the speaking was based in reality. Therefore her encouragement led me to explore the church more in depth. For a time, I had one foot in the recovery and one in Catholicism. Eventually the Lord gave me light to see that for my own personal growth I had to leave all ties to denominations. I openly embraced the LC and even though at first calling someone a “saint” seemed really weird, I progressed to understand that it actually applies to all who are separated out of the world and are called into God. I have enjoyed my time in the LC church for many years but recently the Lord has once again called me out for my own personal growth and to continue forward in seeking His fellowship with believers without denomination archetypes. When reading some of the threads here in this forum, I truly understand your pain. For me, I am coming to grips with the fact that I agree with the theory of the LC but not with the practice. So I am praying with the Lord to guard my spirit and lead me to Him continually that I would not become embittered in any way. I know a lot about bitterness in my lifetime, not always my own, but still affected by the results of it. I am praying daily that everything I have learned in my walk with the saints of the LC would not be in vain. I am praying for the Lord to rise up in all of us that we would search Him out first, and that should I be so fortunate, the Lord would bring saints (true saints) those who seek Christ first into fellowship with me. This forum is apparently very cathartic for venting the frustration, and I thank all those saints who have voiced their fears because without that voice, I would have thought myself alone, shallow and duped, not by the saints but by Christ Himself. Why? Because when your whole being has been set on Christ, when our whole resolve is to live Christ, finding that there are Pharisees in your midst is so difficult. But I believe now, with all my heart, that the Lord has asked me not to judge them, but to instead pray for them. In my experience Brother Lee was right in stating that our natural ambition is truly our biggest curse. I pray now and always that the Lord take away anything ambitious about my nature and replace it with more Christ. I am privileged to have come out of the struggles into resurrection life, all the while experiencing Christ. Recently I have considered more and more what Paul struggled to say to the Corinthians, Galatians and Ephesians. In everything I am so struck by his integrity and his unwillingness to be moved off point just to accommodate others. In Paul’s writing I am learning just how low and meek I need to be in order to become inwardly strong. I really enjoyed this portion of the word today. I hope it touches you saints out there. I am here searching for the oneness of fellowship in Christ. I am not here to provoke, damage or struggle ambitiously. I just want to share my Christ with you and eagerly await your Christ to be shared with me. I believe no matter what our past experiences have been, the one thing we all know is that Christ should be our life and when He is not, we experience an emptiness that only He can fill. Not only can fill, but should fill. So this is what I read today and I hope it encourages your spirit to rejoice and Praise!!!! May we all endeavor to glorify the Son through our speaking. 1 Cor 2:11 For who among men knows the things of man, except the spirit of man which is in him? In the same way, the things of God also no one has known except the Spirit of God. 12 But we have received not the spirit of the world but the Spirit which is from God, that we may know the things which have been graciously given to us by God; 13 Which things also we speak, not in words taught by human wisdom but in words taught by the Spirit, interpreting spiritual things with spiritual words. 14 But a soulish man does not receive the things of the Spirit of God, for they are foolishness to him and he is not able to knowthem because they are discerned spiritually. 15 But the spiritual man discerns all things, but he himself is discerned by no one. 16 For who has known the mind of the Lord and will instruct Him? But we have the mind of Christ. To whatever and through whatever the Lord has brought us, may we come rejoicing and in Praise! Amen Saints may the Lord’s grace be with your Spirit.