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Originally Posted by aron
Your mother expressing worry to you almost daily does NOT sound Christian. Consider the source of the pressure that is bringing you to this state, where you post here. There is another motive source in this universe. Think about tapping into that source, following it, and everything will work out.
Remember the story of Samson & Delilah -- he was the toughest dude around, and got harassed constantly by his lover/companion, to the point where he got driven to distraction & cried out, "Alright, alright already!! I'll cut my hair!!"
That's not the way to make decisions. Certainly not life-altering ones. Find the source of peace in your daily walk, and it will eventually penetrate everything, even the big life decisions.
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Hi LostSheep,
The good news about being a "lost sheep" ... the Savior is out looking for you!
Hopefully you will to register for an account on the forum. The advantage is that you will have other options for communication, including private messaging. Sorry the username "lostsheep" is not available, but maybe "Found Sheep" would work?
I have to say I can't agree with Aron on his assessment. Sorry Aron. To explain:
I believe your mother is doing her job. She loves you and is clearly worried about you. Whether she is attempting to be "Christian" in her concern about you is not something we can know. We are not there in the room with you and your mom. I have a friend who is legitimately concerned for her son (on another matter) and is at a total loss at how to help him and is grasping at straws. Your mother may be right there with her.
When I was a very young child, my mother would read me a story, again and again, about a little lost sheep named "Snowflake". I loved the story. Snowflake had wandered off from the fold and lost his way. A line from the story, the only line I remember (!) is "Snowflake! Come back!"
So, maybe you would ask, "How do I "come back?" Where is "back"? How did I get here? You may have more questions, but these were some of my questions, over the years.
Finding your way back to Him involves a blunt, honest, conversation with him. I told him things like: "Lord, I don't want to do what you're asking me to do. I can't. I don't know how. If I do what you want, I might as well stay "lost". If you want this from me, you'll have to do it because I can't, I don't know how, and I don't want to anyway." You'll have to make me want to obey you.
Honest about what? Start with your "feelings and attractions". Feelings and attractions are, after all, emotions. Ask him how you are supposed to STOP feeling what you feel. Are my feelings real?
All of this is related to the sacrificial nature of the Christian life, beginning back in the Old Testament, which is painfully described in Genesis 22 when God called upon Abraham to offer his son Isaac as a sacrifice.
Having such conversations with our Good Shepherd can be painful. It's important to remember that
he is the "
Good Shepherd" and remember that even with Abraham, God spared the life of his son Isaac. Also, God didn't spare the life of his own son, but he gave him for us. That, and, his Son willingly gave himself a sacrifice as his Father required him to do.
I hope this helps.
Nell