Introduction from "A little brother"

Fuji, Thanks for your sharing. I share pretty much the same feelings of yours and it encourages me to share some of my thoughts for the first time in this forum.

I am currently still with the LC and so forgive me that I prefer to post anonymously.

I was saved in the LC some years ago and then left for a few years. Then I was back to the LC for the past several years. For all the time, I had doubts on the LC teachings especially the almost unbearable pride that pops up in many LC messages.

But somehow I was brought back to the LC a few years ago and I did not realize why until recently. What better place it is to undo the wrongs that I picked up from the LC than being with the LC and facing them again!

Before I was back, I was quite unaware that I was still judging others frequently in a so LC manner. When I was back, I go through the messages every week as others but spend much more time with the Bible to test things mentioned in the messages. I also spent time exploring other non-LC teachings. (My golden rule surviving in the LC - never let those overwhelming ministry messages, morning revivals and meetings eat away your own personal quality time with God and the Bible.)

The past few years were so fruitful that many fallacies in the messages became so apparent. It helped me to trace back to the roots of the "truth" and "practices" that I was taught from the very beginning. As many forum members here already knew, those teachings do not really have strong biblical support. So going through this process gradually helped to clean up those residues inside me (still work-in-progress to be exact, especially the pride).

But I still often feel the pain in my heart when seeing many brothers and sisters who eagerly seek God end up submerged in the LC teachings and sometimes say things not far from blasphemy from my own point of view.

So one of the reasons I still stay at LC is trying to influence the brothers and sisters to be more open minded and truly goes back to the Bible. Regrettably I don't seem to have any success. So I just hope I am playing a part to sew some seeds and one day those seeds may grow.

Sometimes, I think the LC leaders is kind of taking hostage the fellow saints. People who think differently may still stay and not to stand strongly against the leaders because of love to their fellow brothers and sisters and not wanting to hurt their feelings.

Up to this point, I still don't know for how long I will stay with LC. I can only pray that God will open the eyes of our brothers and sisters one day, and that He will continue to teach me to live out a life that is pleasing to Him.

Sorry about the lengthy post. Somehow I found lengthy post is not uncommon in this forum, probably because those words represent what we feel strongly about.

In Christ,
A little brother