Can I be candid?

[countmeworthy]

Originally Posted by Mysteria

Hurting for you Countmeworthy and your experiences here. Living with chronic pain...I can't even begin to imagine. for 17 years!!!! I am glad you find comfort in your relationship with God.

Thank you for your kind thoughts toward me! Yes.. this pain is a real pain in the but and everywhere else too!! But I am a very optimistic and positive person as a whole.

I should mention as a btw, I have screamed at God on more than one occassion. I have told Jesus: You came that we/I would have life and have it more abundantly ! REALLY?? REALLY?? WHAT KIND OF LIFE IS THIS!!??

He has not given me an exact answer but He has drawn me closer to Him and blessed me in other ways. You know a few months back, early in the summer, I began experiencing deep depression. Now I know we all have our ups and downs and then there are those who suffer depression from a clinical chemical imbalance.

Me, I was just super down in the dumps for quite a few months. One night I went to bed and told the Lord "Holy Spirit, I am sooo tired of being in so much pain and being depressed." That night I had a dream. In the dream I was laughing and having a grand ole time playing hide and seek with people who could not find me. As they kept getting close to me, I ran fast and hid again. I was laughing and laughing in the dream and when I woke up, the depression was gone. The physical pain was still there. But my mood was back to normal.. like it is now. I am on good medication btw that is helping me and eat healthy by staying away from bad carbs. I still have a sweet tooth but it is under control and thus I continue to look for ways to keep getting healthy even if the reports say 'there is not cure'. Bah-hum-bug! I know there is...

Please know I am not trying whatsoever to persuade you to 'turn to God'. I am simply sharing an experience I had and again am very grateful for your kind thoughts and compassion.

We need more kindness, compassion and Love in this world!