My Confused Adulthood

Isaiah9:2 · 02-21-2020, 05:31 AM

Hello everyone! I have been reading for a couple weeks now and decided to finally create an account and be a part of the LC Discussions. I find it really helpful for me personally and my relationship with God. I like many of y'all grew up in the LC as yp. My parents first met in denomination then got married and started meeting in the LC due to my mothers dad and her siblings beginning to meet there (this was all in Anaheim). Before I knew it the church life became my life, with regular children's meetings then on to yp conferences, and finally the college conferences. This was where I feel like I enjoyed my pinnacle moments with the Lord but it also lead to a lack of satisfaction. A lack of satisfaction lead to doing many other things that I regret and was just always told "take the blood" when I understand that but I also had to feel good with myself and didn't. There needs to be more of a direction for a care of the man and I probably should have been told to go to therapy and learn how to deal with things going inside of me.

Like many yp who grow up in the LC my goal after college was the FTTA. It was the place that I was convinced produced the "overcomers." I was further from the truth but it was all I knew and never questioned it. Needless to say I didn't finish college in the 4 year period like many of my yp brothers and sisters I grew up with, got married early and moved out of the SoCal area. This put everything in question, the biggest questions "Will I ever be an overcomer, and Age Turner, a Daniel, a man of God...?" I felt the "church life" reserved these statuses and thus now my life was without purpose and meaningless. I struggled (am struggling still) to find myself and know myself as the person God intended me to be.

The LC's make a strong point that you need to separate from "the self, the emotions, the mind" anything from those parts is evil. The more I have read forums on here, ministry books outside LSM and the word I have come to discover this is far from the truth. I feel like this forum is a great way for me to challenge those ideas that I had about the church life and continue going on in the Christian life in a way that doesn't encompass LSMs beliefs but what the Bible has to say. Sorry this is all scattered, I have a lot to say and it feels really good to put my whole self out here and knowing I won't be judged.

02-21-2020, 05:31 AM	#1
Isaiah9:2 Member Join Date: Feb 2020 Posts: 3	My Confused Adulthood Hello everyone! I have been reading for a couple weeks now and decided to finally create an account and be a part of the LC Discussions. I find it really helpful for me personally and my relationship with God. I like many of y'all grew up in the LC as yp. My parents first met in denomination then got married and started meeting in the LC due to my mothers dad and her siblings beginning to meet there (this was all in Anaheim). Before I knew it the church life became my life, with regular children's meetings then on to yp conferences, and finally the college conferences. This was where I feel like I enjoyed my pinnacle moments with the Lord but it also lead to a lack of satisfaction. A lack of satisfaction lead to doing many other things that I regret and was just always told "take the blood" when I understand that but I also had to feel good with myself and didn't. There needs to be more of a direction for a care of the man and I probably should have been told to go to therapy and learn how to deal with things going inside of me. Like many yp who grow up in the LC my goal after college was the FTTA. It was the place that I was convinced produced the "overcomers." I was further from the truth but it was all I knew and never questioned it. Needless to say I didn't finish college in the 4 year period like many of my yp brothers and sisters I grew up with, got married early and moved out of the SoCal area. This put everything in question, the biggest questions "Will I ever be an overcomer, and Age Turner, a Daniel, a man of God...?" I felt the "church life" reserved these statuses and thus now my life was without purpose and meaningless. I struggled (am struggling still) to find myself and know myself as the person God intended me to be. The LC's make a strong point that you need to separate from "the self, the emotions, the mind" anything from those parts is evil. The more I have read forums on here, ministry books outside LSM and the word I have come to discover this is far from the truth. I feel like this forum is a great way for me to challenge those ideas that I had about the church life and continue going on in the Christian life in a way that doesn't encompass LSMs beliefs but what the Bible has to say. Sorry this is all scattered, I have a lot to say and it feels really good to put my whole self out here and knowing I won't be judged.