I cant deal with any of the LSM and LC stuff anymore.....

[theLCfurry]

Recently, I had really big conflicts concerning this faith. I read recent posts about the crap that has been going on in LSM and LC lately, and I feel like I cant continue on as a Christian, much less an LCer. I feel more home towards other groups of people. I feel like I cant read the HWMR and Life Studies during meetings and during the mornings because I cant stand any of Lee's/Nee's and the Blending Brothers' works since they are full of nonsensical crap in my opinion (especially the latest HWMR I think from this summer's training). I could just "quietly disappear" from the faith, but my biggest obstacle that is making me struggle is the fact that I am under 18 years old. I just can't go on in the LC anymore, and the fact that I'm under 18 years old and I cant make any decisions without a parents consent makes my heart ache to the uttermost. I'm losing hope as a christian, and I think I can no longer go on and even go to any christian meeting as an active one as time passes by.