Never Felt "Good Enough"

I can certainly relate to many of the posts here. I was in the church for 30 some years. My heart, soul, mind were all for it . I went to all the meetings, most of the trainings and was fully entrenched. Over the years I got so overwhelmed by the "burdens" the brothers put on us. Bro Lee would say things in the trainings that just did not compute. I got to where I felt so condemned by what I would testify in the meetings, that I eventually quit. Never "good enough".

I have read some posts on here that almost bring me to tears. I hurt for those who were treated so badly. The Lord has to be grieved. I was never treated badly but saw things even years ago that caused me to wonder and question. I got very depressed at one time, because of the intense turmoil inside. The Lord mercifully brought me out of it.

I honestly can hardly believe what has happened to some of the saints over the years. The LC is not what it used to be. It has been taking over by man. The enemy has blinded their eyes. I knew many who have been mentioned here. Brothers who love the Lord and have been maligned and suffered terribly.

Lord, how long before you bring everything into your Light. Only you can do this.