My open apology--To those who have gone before

thisovercomer · 05-19-2010, 10:05 AM

Saints,
It was only a few years ago that I even began to really ask--So what happened to those who walked away? I admit before then I was probably to immature to care or too fearful to know.

At first I was told by members whom I asked that it was better not to speak of you all because nothing good would come from it. Then after time, especially with the Harvest publishers lawsuit, the reference back to Mindbenders and the whole Titus Chu quarantine, more came out. My heart was so heavy for you all. I am someone who prayers all the time, my heart is at peace when I pray. How many times have I mourned your loss from the LC and pleaded with the Lord to keep supplying you with life and light?

Something inside me kept saying, "But there must still be light in their spirit? God you did not toss them and they can't have tossed you God?" I hope in any of my prayers I did not judge your heart--I think I more wondered what could be so distasteful that you could give up the church life as I enjoyed it. I knew it was not perfect, but IMHO just like me, it was being perfected. So my question to God was--"Why couldn't they have been more patient? Lord take away whatever has blinded them."

I am thankful to the Lord that He told me to pray "bind on earth what is bound in heaven and loose on earth what is loosed in heaven. Lord not my will but your will". This was really a covering from the Lord so that my prayers were under His authority and not under my small understanding of you all.

If in anything I have ever misspoken concerning you all I beg your forgiveness and ask that you release me from anything I have judged you for in my heart.
I now know that the Lord brought me through and made me stronger because he is readying for a purpose. I must believe that some at least, if not all of you, have been called out in the same way for the same purpose. Which for me is still not fully revealed.

Thank you Lord that your blood washes and cleanses me clean.

Hebrews 10:35 Do not cast away therefore your boldness, which has great reward. 36 For you have need of endurance in order that, having done the will of God, you may obtain the promise.37 "For in yet a very little while the Coming One will come and will not delay. 38 But My righteous one shall live by faith; and if he shrinks back, My soul does not delight in him.'' 39 But we are not of those who shrink back to ruin but of them who have faith to the gaining of the soul.

Praise you Lord Jesus!!! Thank you that you are the ascended Head of all things.

05-19-2010, 10:05 AM	#1
thisovercomer Member Join Date: May 2010 Posts: 8	My open apology--To those who have gone before Saints, It was only a few years ago that I even began to really ask--So what happened to those who walked away? I admit before then I was probably to immature to care or too fearful to know. At first I was told by members whom I asked that it was better not to speak of you all because nothing good would come from it. Then after time, especially with the Harvest publishers lawsuit, the reference back to Mindbenders and the whole Titus Chu quarantine, more came out. My heart was so heavy for you all. I am someone who prayers all the time, my heart is at peace when I pray. How many times have I mourned your loss from the LC and pleaded with the Lord to keep supplying you with life and light? Something inside me kept saying, "But there must still be light in their spirit? God you did not toss them and they can't have tossed you God?" I hope in any of my prayers I did not judge your heart--I think I more wondered what could be so distasteful that you could give up the church life as I enjoyed it. I knew it was not perfect, but IMHO just like me, it was being perfected. So my question to God was--"Why couldn't they have been more patient? Lord take away whatever has blinded them." I am thankful to the Lord that He told me to pray "bind on earth what is bound in heaven and loose on earth what is loosed in heaven. Lord not my will but your will". This was really a covering from the Lord so that my prayers were under His authority and not under my small understanding of you all. If in anything I have ever misspoken concerning you all I beg your forgiveness and ask that you release me from anything I have judged you for in my heart. I now know that the Lord brought me through and made me stronger because he is readying for a purpose. I must believe that some at least, if not all of you, have been called out in the same way for the same purpose. Which for me is still not fully revealed. Thank you Lord that your blood washes and cleanses me clean. Hebrews 10:35 Do not cast away therefore your boldness, which has great reward. 36 For you have need of endurance in order that, having done the will of God, you may obtain the promise.37 "For in yet a very little while the Coming One will come and will not delay. 38 But My righteous one shall live by faith; and if he shrinks back, My soul does not delight in him.'' 39 But we are not of those who shrink back to ruin but of them who have faith to the gaining of the soul. Praise you Lord Jesus!!! Thank you that you are the ascended Head of all things.