I Left the Church 3 Years ago after Fighting with Depression

I left the church three years ago after fighting with depression. That was my ah ha moment that I relised the church was not for me . They told me God will always be there and to pray so I did nothing happened . Through strength of my self I continued on . The so called saints keep telling me God gives us burdens but ones we can bear, I asked why did he give me the burden of depression to the point I wanted to kill my self . What stoped me was an old family friend her son killed himself and she posted on Facebook about her grief. I saw what it did and that gave me strength to continue on. I never did tell her she saved my life that day from reading her Facebook post. I wondered why God gave her son something he could not handle and he killed himself. The Lord is our Father.

Oh did not get me started about what they do to the sisters . Be quit sister , dress modest sister , do not talk to the brothers sister. That church puts themselves in a bubble and tried to keep people in and the world out . I hope it pops and all the world comes in. They ruined me , but I am strong . I see their tricks and lies .