[Freedom]

Originally Posted by Trapped

I'll throw my own in. The self-imposed passivity. To this day I am scared to initiate anything in my own life, including small things like calling people up to go hang out, all the way to bigger things like what job to go for or what medium-to-large changes I should make in my life, because of the deep-seated negative implication that that is something initiated by me and not by the Lord. I know this should be balanced in that we should bring the Lord into things, but it ends up being paralyzing. I’ve never been allowed to express what I want, or have an interest in things, or have a goal to strive for (it might replace the Lord!!!) that as an adult I am still prevented from those things. Or, if I do, they are accompanied by guilt and shame and fear.

Passivity is something I have struggled with for a long time. The LCM taught everyone that they should "wait on the Lord" for everything, and sometimes that meant hesitating in even the smallest of decisions. I have thus had the tendency to always look at the potential negative outcomes of a decision and then fail to make a decision at all, which in many cases ends up being worse than making a wrong decision.