Thank you Aron for your persistence. This really makes sense to me, I promise.
When I was a kid, I was confirmed in a Lutheran church. My pastor presented each of us with a framed verse. Mine was "Trust in The Lord with all your heart and lean not on your understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight." You would think after 16 years of seeing this verse everyday displayed in my home, it finally sink in.
I suppose I'm still just a stubborn and willfull child. The Lord will gain me though and perhaps He will use my stubbornness for His will.
Thank you again
I'm sure I will feel better after I meet with my friend who is a pastor's wife. We had to postpone due to the dumping of snow we had yesterday.