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Originally Posted by GraceAlone
I often felt that in the eyes of the LC, I was barely a person -- more of a drone, and especially as a female, one without any voice. But the Lord is "the God who sees," and His compassion runs deep.
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Speaking only for myself. But what I remember is that being male, I was automatically superior to 50% of the church congregation. I could lead, perhaps, someday. I could maybe someday do something meaningful and bear responsibility in the church (and the church is all there is - we all believed that). The sisters could cook and clean and sing and mind children and say "ayyeeemeeennnn" loudly. But I as a male could go beyond that, do weighty things someday. I was being groomed from Day 1 to do things no 'sister' could ever attain.
My brain was fogged and my heart was rotten. It was just an ego feed and I fell for it.
It never occurred to me to ask why, if women couldn't bear any weight before God, the Living Stream Ministry sold "God's plan of redemption" by Mary McDonough on its book sales page, and in meetings they cited it as authoritative; why Dora Yu was held as a lioness of 'recovery', why WN copied (plagiarized) Jessie Penn-Lewis, why only Ruth Lee sat with WL and WN during the meetings that restored WN to ministry after years of exile.
The ego feed blurred any cognitive capacity. And if my conscience was bothered, it wasn't bothered enough to do anything.