[aron]

Noah,

One thing that consistently strikes me about such posts as yours is the emotional unloading. A lot has been repressed, stretching back into the childhood/teen years. The only expression allowed is "Ooooooooo Loooooord" etc. Not healthy at all. So the all-caps mode may seem 'ugly' or 'unpleasant' to the casual passerby, but it's probably therapeutic.

So vent away. There's a largely voiceless generation, thousands of them, maybe tens of thousands if you look abroad in non-English areas, who've come through the LC wringer and are trying to face life apart from the constant mental conditioning of their past.

Be brave and speak(write). You speak for many. Even though you're selfishly speaking to break your mind/soul free, you do so on behalf of many who've been pushed down into silence. Your freedom of expression becomes a sort of vicarious gateway to others.