[Nell]

Hi Elle,

Welcome to the forum! We're going through some maintenance now, but I sent you a PM. You can read Private Messages by clicking the link in the upper right corner under the "Welcome, Elle" box.

I'm so sorry for your struggles. You are not alone. There are lots of folks just like you who need to make sense of what we went through. Your post was not "disjointed" at all. We've been there.

Again, welcome.

Nell