[OBW]

I don't know how to answer concerning your mother. How she responds is "on her" as they say.

But as to your thoughts on God in general, let me suggest an alternative to simply chucking it all. Since the Christianity and belief in God you have learned so far is likely only from the fruit of the poisoned LC tree, maybe take some time to consider it all from a different perspective. I wouldn't try to suggest what kind. I consider a lot of different groups worthy for consideration. The problem is that any particular assembly in any broader group may be better or worse for many reasons. I would generally avoid megachurches as they are too easy to just become a statistic. Definitely avoid the healthy, wealthy, and wise gospel places.

Most of us who grew up in church of any kind eventually have to make what they grew up with their own unless we just want to rock along and not make waves. And too many take that route. Some call it "deconstructing." Others say this is a dangerous thing. But if you can't question it all and then find out what is real (and a lot of what you learned in the LC is not real), then you will either just become a seat warmer, or you will just reject it all.

As for your family, the key is that no matter what they say (or even just your mother), few really intend to just cut you off. But they may think they intend that at the first. Accept that the transition — whether to a different kind of Christian faith or to no faith — will start off raw. But don't just disappear. Give them the opportunity to soften their stance. To come to the realization that family is not severed over the LC. There may always be an elephant in the room. But if they are still human, their love will overcome it enough to bring the family back together — at least at some level.

Now I can't declare that it is guaranteed to work. And I (and a lot of others) would like to help you rethink your faith without being compelled to just dump it and move on. But whatever you do with respect to your family, do not presume that it is simply "in the LC or disowned and never to darken the doors again." I suspect that it may seem that way at first, but it should not remain in that way.