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Originally Posted by Unregistered
I got to where I felt so condemned by what I would testify in the meetings, that I eventually quit. Never "good enough".
I have read some posts on here that almost bring me to tears. I hurt for those who were treated so badly. The Lord has to be grieved. I was never treated badly but saw things even years ago that caused me to wonder and question. I got very depressed at one time, because of the intense turmoil inside. The Lord mercifully brought me out of it.
I honestly can hardly believe what has happened to some of the saints over the years. The LC is not what it used to be. It has been taking over by man. The enemy has blinded their eyes. I knew many who have been mentioned here. Brothers who love the Lord and have been maligned and suffered terribly.
Lord, how long before you bring everything into your Light. Only you can do this.
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Unregistered I can relate. Looking back at the 70's and 80's, I had a very good childhood in the local churches. My family had their struggles. Moving localities multiple times. As a result I made many friends. I was never abused and by God's grace we were never homeless. By the New Way I had graduated high school and the LC was not what it used to be.
As an adult in the local churches I never felt good enough. Whether I spoke or didn't speak, that's how it was. Everyone was so spiritual and I was far from it. I was like paint on a wall. Never said anything nor did anything to draw attention to myself, but observed who others were treated. I would think how could no one else see what I see? It was like the Emperor's New Clothes being lived out.
Instead of depression, I would get migraines. Perhaps from stress I was feeling. Through marriage and through fatherhood it all went away.