[awareness]

Welcome sister, to the forum. stillseekingtruth? I love it.

I can't believe you've been treated so badly, to say the least, growing up in the local church, and all you've gone thru.

You have been lied to. You've been lied to about who you are. No wonder you considered ending it, and no wonder you have dissociative personality disorder, and PTST. It is something that happens in that sort of system, sorry to say.

But I think that if you are still seeking the truth you'll find your way out of all. This I'm hoping for you in a big way. Just remember, you've been lied to about who you really are.

And hope to read more rants from you. You rant real good. Keep it up, pretty please. You seem to be a wonderful person to me, for whatever it's worth.