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Originally Posted by kappagamma
I had the thought recently, based on my own experience, that if there has been as significant an amount of damage as I believe has been done to “church kids” in regard to the reasonable development of the human soul (mind, emotion, will) and if you believe that the soul and spirit are so closely connected then I would think it would make sense that, until such time real healing of the humanity of the individual has taken place, a genuine access of the spiritual realm could be difficult. Not impossible sure, but could be difficult. I think of it as scar tissue that can restrict movement and activity. I don’t know for others but I think for me there is a crying out of “look at me as a person” “see me as who I am” “care about my humanity” and if the craving is for that and you are only fed something else then eventually the proverbial stomach recoils at what is offered.
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I think this is an astute observation.
How are you supposed to feel love and understanding by your heavenly Father when your own father prioritizes the meetings over you?
How are you supposed to have a relationship with a God that is good when you are told He will arrange for a mac truck to hit you if you backslide (i.e. be a human being)?
How are you supposed to want to approach a God who you are told doesn't want you to enjoy having hobbies and do anything other than sit in a room and "receive the dispensing"?
How are you supposed to want to talk to a God who gave you musical talent only to be told you cannot express it on anything other than a tiny boring subset of Lee-related music that brings you to tears in its mind-numbing dullness?
How can you feel comfortable coming to a God and telling Him the desires of your heart if you are told He can't stand to be around you unless you are covered in Christ?
How are you supposed to want to read the word and use your God-given faculties in having a sober mind to discern His speaking and your own situations when you are told to get out of your mind and that your mind = death?
I could go on but I just get mad.
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Originally Posted by kappagamma
I will say though that jumping into this forum has perhaps sparked a small amount of seeking that I have not had in many, many years. I almost bought a Bible the other day but am torn between versions at the moment  |
I have a different Bible version by my bed now but it is still hard for me to want to reach for it. So many years of it being a dry book full of meaningless footnote explanations has made it currently difficult for me to read. When I do read it, though, as HERn said the different version really helps me pay attention to what is actually being said. If you get the inclination again to buy a Bible I do recommend it. At least you will then have it immediately available when you want to read it.