Once again, Muchas Gracias for answering my questions.
You're very much on the road to being Healed spiritually & emotionally. I totally understand.....in fact WE understand you not wanting to have much 'fellowship' if any with Christians face to face. As your Journey in Christ continues, you will hear a lot of very good teachings and in the next breath you might hear some very WEIRD teachings (especially teachings on 'tithes & offerings' which are a big business for the charesmatic church.) I've been all around the 'world' and seen some weird, weird stuff and yet there have been times when I have been soo much under the Presence of God, I could barely walk. Sometimes the Love of God is sooo great inside me, I want to 'explode' spiritually.
That said,
make sure you pick up a hobby if you can..take up a sport for fun if you can, watch sitcoms and fun movies that will make you laugh and entertain you. Make friends with Christians and non Christians but keep yourself covered in the Blood of the Lamb every day. There is supernatural power beyond our human understanding in the Blood of Jesus.
Close your 'ears' to garbage talk & swearing. Close your 'eyes' to violence and sexual perversion. Sometimes we will watch a really good movie and they'll throw in a 'love' scene. Guard your heart. But stay away from sexually explicit shows/movies. Over the years, I have laughed my head off at Seinfeld. It is not the most wholesome show but I need to laugh. God did not strike me dead and I have a very close relationship with the Word of God. Sometimes I turn the channel even if it is funny because it is totally gross and disgusting OR I hear God, the Holy Spirit tell me to turn off the TV or change the channel.
The pendelum will swing from one extreme to the other most likely. It did for me. I am now finding balance in my spiritual journey. I am studying, praying and reading the Word of God more & more and 'teaching' the Word of God to my friends because the Word of GOD is MY LIFE.
I don't know if you read the scriptures or if you are taking a 'break'. When you do begin to read the scriptures get yourself a good 'study' bible. Also read from various translations. The amplified expands on the words. It gives you deeper understanding of the meaning of words.
You might already be doing this. I simply don't know. If you have questions or want some counsel, we're all here for you !
The other forum is very argumentative..even among those who have already left the LC. There are TRUTHS I learned in the LC because it was and still is the Word of God. But some of the folks over there, don't want to acknowledge that not EVERYTHING we learned in the LC was religious or bad. At least not for me. Please remember I was in the LC from 1975-79ish. There was no FTT. And I happened to be in a fairly 'good' locality.
Finally, thank you for reading my 'counsel'. I hope I wasn't too 'preachy'. Stay in touch with us. Ask questions. We are your FRIENDS. We totally UNDERSTAND everything you are going through and will be going through as you peel off the LC skin off of you.
God strengthen you, enlighten you, lead you in the Path of Righteousness, placing a Shield of Protection around you, give you WISDOM, JOY and LOTS and LOTS of laughter sprinkled with abundant Blessings above your expectation in Christ Jesus !