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It's been almost a year since I began this thread. I would like to share briefly with you about what happened with us during this time. I think the main thing that really turned my Christian life upside down since my departure from LSM is the revelation of the Father's heart. I found out that this one thing is so much lacking among God's children. I began to see the glimpses of this revelation when I was still in LC. At that time I was considering to leave, but I was afraid - what if by doing this I rebel against God's deputy authority? That's when the Lord reminded me a verse, "Perfect love casts out fear" (1 John 4:18). That's when I realized that when others try to hold me by fear, it is not of the Lord. He attracts us by love, not fear.

The things I described in my first post in this thread began to happen as the result of the further revelation of the Father's love. That's when I realized that the Lord is not interested in any kind of "movement", "big thing" or "organization". He is interested in His family. And real family is not an edifice or "family business", it is something based on personal relationship. Our Daddy cares for each one of His kids, and He wants us to minister this love to others.

Here are some stories that I hope will be of some help to you:

1. In May 2008 Brother Albert Zehr came to our city with a team from Vancouver. We gathered people from different congregations in our city. The main focus of the conference was on generational reconciliation. Honestly in the beginning I was not sure that it is a topic that people would like. But when I saw how the Holy Spirit was moving in the meetings, how people were weeping and reconciling with each other, it really changed something within me. I began to realize that the Lord wants from us not "the high picks of the divine truth", but the manifestation of His love.

2. In one of our meetings I was led of the Lord to repent to a sister on the behalf of all men who abused her in the past. After the meeting she told me that she had no clue what I was doing. But the very next she experienced very severe demonic attacks. As a result we were able to minister deliverance to her, and she was freed from some nasty spirits.

3. We have a sister who was very emotionally unavailable (I wonder if it's a good term?) when she came to us. My wife share with her her own experienced of how the Lord liberated her. That sister became very interested and let us pray for her. When we were praying for her, the Holy Spirit fell on her and within a week you could not recognize her. She became so open and warm, and now she is becoming a very effective witness for the Lord.

4. Recently I attended the conference conducted by a fraction of the Russian Orthodox church who are hungry for the things of the Spirit. They invited a couple from England to be speakers. The subject was "The Loving heart of the Father". It was a youth conference, and I was amazed how wounded the young people are nowadays. The couple from England offered a fatherly and motherly hug to those who wanted. What surprised me was that young people would line up and stand patiently in the queue to get this hug - you could hardly hold tears.

We can argue a lot, but what people really need is the manifestation of the Father's love. I was also surprised to see how difficult it is for many people to receive this love. When you receive love, you make yourself vulnerable, and many people were betrayed so many times that they are afraid to open their hearts. Only the supernatural power of the Holy Spirit can win their trust again.

And the last, but not the least at all - the Lord has answered our prayers. We are expecting a baby in June. We tried to have a baby for several years - to no avail and doctors did not help. When I returned from one "weird" conference I prayed for my wife and she later said that the Lord told her that she was now healed and can have babies. Two months later she was pregnant.

Our Lord is so great, and His love surpasses understanding, and He is by no means limited by a little group with big claims.