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Originally Posted by IDon'tKnow

....I feared I would be under God's judgement and be taken away from God's unique move. I relinquished these rationalizations because (amongst other things) at the End God was making it clear to me that at the end I wouldn't be able to blame it on Lee and if I should fear punishment it should be for not following His voice not for not following what somebody tells me is His voice.
Anyway I was curious to know how much this matched the experience of others. Did others here read the life studies, attended the conferences, watched the video messages, and get the sense that something is off here. What I mean is how much can be put down to a different private and public persona and how much is just simply a willingness as a group to turn a blind eye to the obvious inconsistencies in order to be in God's unique move?

Great points and greaat questions IDon'tKnow!
I liked reading the life study messages alone and with the saints. I liked the home meetings where we'd read the messages and share what we would be getting out of them.

Lee may have introduced many good things regarding the Word of God...but when I came to the LC in '75, the emphasis was on the WORD of GOD. God was getting the credit...even though we called on the Lord's Name, even though we pray read, and read the messages given by Lee.

Lee was not the focus. If he was, he never was to me. Our locality had elders presenting the Word of God to us..even though the messages given were the messages coming from Anaheim. I also spent a lot of time reading the Word alone and with my sisters in Christ.

By 1978, the videos were introduced and thus we began to watch Lee on 'TV' more often. My spirit churned. I did not like watching the videos of him at all. At the same time, all the credit was being shifted to 'Brother Lee'. UGH.

The life study messages were the only messages I got into given by Lee. I did not get into his books. But I did like reading Watchman Nee's books and have a few of Nee's books in my library.

I'm very glad you listened to the Voice of the Lord to follow HIM rather than man. For when we stand at the Judgment Seat of Christ, none of us will be able to blame anyone for our shortcomings..for not obeying the Voice of God in our spirit.

May the Lord continue to strengthen you in your spirit and fill you with the Wisdom of God. May He grant you revelation and understanding, patience and forgiveness towards those who who wronged you/who wronged us, in Christ Jesus.