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Originally Posted by JJ
Bradley your ex-wife was also assaulting you, which is against the law, and was never taught that temper tantrums aren't proper behavior with anyone. She needed the attention of law enforcement and counseling. Proper shepherding would have pointed you there.
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Yeah I know. But we never got 'proper shepherding' even though I asked for it from the brothers on so many occasions. Heck, one time I went to a leading brother for help with my bible reading, and he looked at me disgusted like I was a bad person for not reading the bible every day. Its hard to discern who you can go to for help. Often the elders and those who prophesy really well already have their function, helping individuals is not their function.
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Originally Posted by JJ
If you think you need to "make a move on women", you probably should focus on a heart change before looking for female companionship. Heart change only comes from Jesus.
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Okay this sounds really bad but hear me out: I was a virgin until I got married in my late 20s. I was married for six years and only had sex a few times a year, and for that I had to beg like a hobo and do a whole lot of extra chores and sucking up for like a week. Even then it was the worst sex ever, she just lay there with this empty look in her eyes. One time she fell asleep halfway through. Another time her cellphone rang and she didn't know I could understand her Chinese (we lived in China but only spoke English at home, she's Chinese), but her friend asked her what she was doing and she said (in Chinese) "oh, nothing important, I'm free to chat. Whats up?". She obviously didn't marry me because she loved me, if she did then sex might have been more exciting to her than washing the dishes. No amount of foreplay or effort on my part did anything to change that.
Now I'm finally single again, I'm in my mid 30s and I've probably only had sex about ~60-70 times in my whole life. You seriously think I'm looking for companionship right now? Eventually I'm going to want a girlfriend but right now, that's not my highest priority. I don't care about having someone to hold hands with when I walk down the street, I don't feel any particular need for someone to call me 'hunny'. I already had that for six years and it wasn't all it was cracked up to be. So I know this is a Christian forum, but I have to be honest, I'm sick of missing out on all the action that everyone else is getting, and God is going to have to wait until I get that out of my system before I can carry on being a 'good Christian boy'.