[aron]

To me, lately it's all come down to one question: is the human experience at its core a competetive one, or a co-operative one? Based on that outlook, one will choose the path. And I have no doubt in my mind, which way Jesus was pointing us.

In the LC, words like "fellowship" and "oneness" were entirely predicated upon exclusivity toward one ministry and its constant critique of all others as fallen, deformed, dark, twisted, devilish, satanic, babylonian etc. We were "God's best". This striving for primacy against one's fellows flies against everything in the gospels and beyond them.

And I was so mesmerised by this system, that when the FTTA trainer told us "don't waste your time" with the sick, the indigent, the widows and orphans, and instead focus our attentions, efforts and energies on those who could repay us in this age, the so-called "good building material", I kept soldiering on. Even though I knew in my heart that the ministry's programme directives were absolutely contrary to the gospel message given us by the very witnesses of Jesus. The Hive Mind had taken over, and its present 'truths' had swamped the eternal gospel.

I thank God for pulling me out of that place.