[OnHisPath]

Your post really touched me. I can identify with some of your struggles. Thankfully, I didn't grow up in the LC, but became involved with it at an impressionable age. I think I would have been much like you, taking everything literally and struggling greatly with interacting in my world. In fact, when I was trying to believe that the LC was the only way, I did do just that.

To be honest, your childhood sounds like it was fairly traumatic. Even beyond the pressures of the LC, it sounds like your home life wasn't a respite, but rather had tensions of its own. Have you considered that you may be experiencing symptoms of ptsd? I am not a mental health professional, so take it with a grain of salt, but ptsd is what came to mind as I read your post. Good for you for seeking out therapy.