[aron]

Remember that great art comes from tragedy. Your voice needs to be heard, as much as anyone else's.

Your example of getting herded into a ring & coerced into a religious indoctrination ritual at age 12 is case in point why the LC is not a good thing. Instead of letting you find your own mountaintop, they pushed you into their abyss. But you still have life, hope, and most importantly, a choice. The LC are masters of coercion and shaming. But you're designed to be free - believe it, this innate power to perceive, and freedom to choose will be yours.

Lastly, we're all logical creatures. I mean, what is a world without meaning, or sense? So think about your situation for a minute. You grew up isolated from experience. The world was evil, Christianity was evil, society and culture were evil, you were evil, and your classmates likewise.. The only thing you were encouraged to experience for the first 15 years of your life was LC thought and culture. So of course you are going to be lost at sea!

What I'm saying is, even though you physically got out, you're still experientially in the LC pit. Mentally, emotionally, relationally, behaviorally - you're still the product of your past. But the good news is, once you understand where you are, and who you are, you'll understand where you need to go, and how to get there.