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Originally Posted by New Beginnings
Thank you, thank you Aron,
This is extremely helpful! I am still trying to wrap my brain around some of this but I am beginning to understand the big picture more clearly.
I needed to see the big picture. This summer I spent some time reading some classic literature. I homeschool my children and decided in order to give them the education they deserve, I'd better continue my own education. The very last book I read was one of the more famous negative utopias. As I was reading this, I was looking at it purely in political context. Frankly, it was a terribly depressing book. However, it laid a wonderful foundation in my mind to understanding the big picture.
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Glad to be of some small service. And the Lord has many more small Christians such as myself waiting to help you, if you just stir yourself and make a few feeble efforts to go forward. God is quite willing, and able.
The LC is in many ways a "negative utopia". I say this because it promises its adherents utopia ("Glorious church life/feasting on such a rich store") but it is imperfect like all the rest. And its attempts to hide its imperfections make it worse and worse. Ultimately it becomes a dystopia. Like North Korea, where you can get executed for not clapping loudly enough when the Great Man speaks. I kid you not. If you aren't "positive" enough, you get noted, and watched. In the LC, thinking is the first terrible step to independence, and - gasp - rebellion!
But you already know that.
The key, in my book, is to relax, trust in God, fight the good fight behind closed doors, in the secret place with your Father in heaven. Outwardly, just be calm and trust God. Smile and praise God. (See e.g. Matt 6:5; 6:16) Your children need to see a happy mother who is peaceful and calm, who receives with simple faith what God has given her.
If that seems like a tall order, given your present circumstances, remember that the Spirit that raised Jesus Christ from the dead can do all things. It is God's glory to provide proof of the resurrection power of Jesus' name in such a trifling vessel such as yourself, and me and all the rest of us.
Anyway, I'm rambling, but I wanted to add that if you converse with God, with whatever tools at your disposal (prayer, song, meditation, helping others, listening to Christian fellowship, and the Bible [most of all the Bible]), God will indeed show you the big picture, as it pertains to you. Only God can show you this. We see the fallacy of the Great Man theory, where every generation "God raised up Brother X to lead us to glory". No. Only God can show you your purpose. Witness Lee failed to give your husband his true purpose, and I'm not going to make the same mistake.
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Originally Posted by Ohio
It slowly dawned on me how clouded my thinking had become.
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The LC manifesto is "get out of your mind", i.e. don't think. The dense fog that enshrouds the LC members' brains is a noxious vapor from the pit of hell. I was there. It took me years, post-LC, to begin to think again. I still do a terrible job of it, and my living is equally poor, but at least I'm trying. God gave me a brain and God's throne isn't shaken when I attempt to use it. But the LC "glorious church life" is shaken whenever its members think. Why is that?
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Originally Posted by New Beginnings
I hope you can understand my motivation in this process. I am not attempting to argue or debate with my husband. I am not doing this to be "right" and him "wrong." I am not just a sad suffering sister trying to run away from my circumstances. My motivation is pure love for my husband and my children. I want to save them, I want the Lord to save them through me.
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I would argue that your motivation is but a pale shadow of God's. The responsibility here rests on God, not on you. Don't try to shoulder the burden, rather by faith simply accept that this is all on God. Jesus Christ won the victory. Your job is merely to follow. Never take your eyes off the prize. If you focus on Jesus Christ as the personification of God's love and care for you, your family, husband, etc etc will come along just fine.
Peace & God bless.