[Freedom]

It goes without saying that everyone who has left or was kicked out of the LCM is going to feel wronged and possibly harbor feelings of anger towards it. I wouldn't say that is necessarily bad, because I believe such feelings are a defense mechanism that protects us from getting sucked back into the system. Even though I'm not fully "out" of the LCM yet, knowing what I now know, I could never go back to the level of involvement that I was once at. There is good reason for me to have my guard up. I have been wronged and hurt in the LCM. At the same time, I realize that I have to move on. When I realize how many are still there hurting, my heart really goes out to them.

I have no desire to to see LCers have their paradigm collapse on them, but for those I know, I want them to know that there are explanations as to why they've experienced the things that they have. Not everyone in the LCM has fared so well, the movement has a trail of casualties that it has left behind. I admit that I have little capacity to love, however, I realize that showing love towards those in the system that has wronged me is what I need to do. On the one hand I think that it is necessary to stand firmly against the LCM politics (this is especially true for those who are still in contact with LCers), on the other hand, there is no need to purposefully create confrontation when contacting LCers.

Some verses that I find helpful are Eph 4:14-16
14 that we should no longer be children, tossed to and fro and carried about with every wind of doctrine, by the trickery of men, in the cunning craftiness of deceitful plotting, 15 but, speaking the truth in love, may grow up in all things into Him who is the head—Christ— 16 from whom the whole body, joined and knit together by what every joint supplies, according to the effective working by which every part does its share, causes growth of the body for the edifying of itself in love.

I feel like at one point I was child who was tossed to and fro by every wind of doctrine coming from the blendeds. I was tricked by those around me, duped into keeping silent and keeping concerns to myself. I saw backstabbing and plotting going on. This was all taking place within a group that calls itself the "Lord's Recovery". Because I have seen how wrong it is and what kind of situation I was immersed in, what I can do now is to speak the truth in love to those I know in the LCM.

I have concerns about what I've experienced, and I feel that I must speak truthfully according to my convictions. I might only be able to do this on this forum, but at least I am doing what I can. The truth isn't always easy to swallow. It can hurt sometimes. It's hard to think that I wasted so much of my time with LC nonsense, but because I have shared my experience, others in the LCM who might be reading this forum could possibly be helped. If the truth is spoken out of love towards those in the LCM, then in some ways we have done our part. It's not easy to love everyone, especially those who have really wronged us. If they can't accept the truth, then that's really their problem. So many who have left the LCM, have just "moved on". That's not to say that there is any obligation to help those still in the LCM, but I think some are needed who wish to help those still in the LCM. The LCM a self-reinforcing system, and I think it takes a lot of doing for anyone to realize what all the LCM really is.