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Originally Posted by Dave
You quoted me "I hiked the Inca trail" etc but what caught my eye was your moving to a more realistic picture of life. We all have to take stock of our situation at various times in our lives and balance our Christian beliefs and practices, family, outside activities and so on. Without balance we will become lopsided. It is not always easy to find balance because things happen in our lives but I always to try to get back to a balanced life to make it more fulfilling. I think you do get it.
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Dave,
I'm not sure I get it yet. Generally speaking when released a pendulum rocks back and forth for quite some time before coming to rest over an agreed upon center-which is hopefully a good one. I have no idea what the other side of this pendulum is-that is why analogies to natural systems are often inept ways to describe life.
I'm been thinking through some tough decisions-which no one is good at. I suspect people in charismatic groups are particularly bad at this as they are constantly being told or influenced by what to do. Like I mentioned in the passed real red flags went up when the decision past college was framed as "the training or other things". I usually don't like to admit it but I am an intellectual person passionate about ideas and life-which is officially not to well received in the LR where you have to just read without questioning. In short I have to decide if the bonds, the familiarity, etc. I have made in the LC are more important than freedom to look at life like ripples from a water drop-endless possibilities...rather than peeling the LC onion to reach the truths that must certainly lie in its center.
Life has been interesting, if not more lonely so far. It is nice to not have to tow the LC along...I always didn't feel like the real me when I had to talk about it(actually even individuality is very warped in the LC). I remember speaking about the gospel and comparing it to the spontaneous sharing with peers about a restaurant one enjoyed. I realized for myself I couldn't genuinely tell people that-and I have had to also convince myself that this is not my fault-still doubting and difficult for me. Life certainly would be easier(but more enjoyable?) if I could just go along with everything!