Re: "Wrecked, Ruined?"
Dear FoundHim,
Have courage. I know it seems bleak at the moment, but the Lord is our anchor during these times of trouble and He will not give us more than we can handle.
I have experienced some of the things you have and also have despared. I have had impulses to walk into the sea- to end it all. I feel everything deeply and am a very sensitive person. However, the Lord has got me through each crisis, and I am surprised when I wake in the morning and I feel fine. My husband and I celebrated our silver wedding anniversary a few years ago. I testified to my parents that it was only the Lord who kept us together and that I was grateful. My husband and I love each other, but do not see eye to eye on all things. In the past, I was the one who wanted to stay in the LC for the kids sake, and he was the one that saw the problems. When Titus was quarantined, I could not belong to this group any more. To me, the blessing for keeping the oneness had been lost. I have tried to share some things with my husband, but it causes arguments. I also feel alone. But like your husband, mine wants to be one with me too. We have to praise God for this inner sense that they have. I realise that both his and my knowledge is imperfect, but the Lords love is all we need. The Lord has joined us together, and as long as we love him, He will help us stay together and together get transformed. I can honestly say that we are improving in our relationship. And one day we will see the Lord and His plan as we both ought.
Hang in there sister, it is not over yet. The Lord has promised to finish the work that He has started.
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