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Originally Posted by Ohio
You needed a heavenly revelation for that?
Obviously you had not met me yet, or you would have known that from the start.
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I was spending all my time in the LRC pretending to be "good building material". It was exhausting. Eventually I collapsed from the strain. It took me years to admit my abject failure. But God is merciful; eventually I saw the unique "good building material." His name is Jesus Christ.
What changed for me was that when I found people as messed up as I was, years after my LRC immersion in "God's best", I realized that if I served and shepherded and fed and loved these failures, then God would serve and shepherd and love and feed me. God told us to "waste yourself" upon those who could not repay you, and your reward would be great in heaven (in direct contrast to the LRC trainer who told us, bluntly, not to "waste your time" on the losers of the world). Eventually, the premise that I was a pathetic noob even became something of a calling card. The hearers usually received me, thinking, "Gee, if God can help that poor slob Aron then surely he can help me, too." My own failures became a testimony of God's mercy and goodness and steadfastness.