[UntoHim]

lostsheep,
Thank you for having the courage and fortitude to come to our little forum and open your heart about your struggles. As a young Christian within the Local Church of Witness Lee, this makes your struggles even more difficult. Rest assured that there are many here on our forum who will be putting you in our thoughts and prayers.

All this being said, I am afraid that LocalChurchDiscussions is probably not the best place for finding the help and wise counselling for someone in your position. I would imagine that there are a few brothers who are forum members, or at least lurkers, who may be able to give you some helpful advise, and we will give a limited amount of time for them to get in touch with you. You may want to consider joining the forum, which would afford you the opportunity to receive Private Messages through our PM system.

In the meantime, you may want to take a look at these websites. I'm sure there are many more out there. Also I would highly recommend that you start reading the Psalms as much as your time allows.

https://www.desiringgod.org/articles...g-for-intimacy

https://www.biblicalcounselingcoalit...ex-attraction/
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