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Originally Posted by Sons to Glory!
I had not seen your testimony before, but really enjoyed reading through it and your recent two posts!
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You'll notice that my tenor has changed over the years. Initially, I felt that the LC had good experiences, but critiqued them for their spiritual snobbishness and self-congratulatory style - "Only we have the riches, and poor Christianity..."
I didn't have a bad experience at all, and only noticed some small bit of heavy-handedness from the podium, which is endemic to fundamentalist Christianity. A kind of painstaking, self-benefitting care to define what is the line of propriety, and to note with some satisfaction that "we" are on the proper side of the line and "they" are not.
I left because after years of call, call, call Jesus' name, I found that the promised inward metabolic transformation had not occurred. So I privately met with the leading brothers in my frustration, and they were not interested. It was a dead-end street, and I left, back to "Christianity", which offered me more hope for my spiritual journey.
It took years to find out what was behind the veil. Even now, if the Nee and Lee cheerleaders admit something may have happened, they'll say, "Brother Nee was falsely accused of immorality..." But even then, they won't say that he falsely admitted to the same. Just the accusation, that it was false. No mention of his confession. Or Witness Lee, "Daystar was an attempt to gain funds for the furtherance of the gospel." No mention that WL's son was President and chief beneficiary of the project. How much savings did Timothy Lee lose when Daystar went under? No transparency.
So my view of the entire project has dimmed over the years. Surely I need to repent for my participation. I got snookered, my ego got puffed - "God's best" and all that - and I got trapped by the insular, elitist, house-of-mirrors personality cult. We lift up one of our fellows, and by association, we're seemingly elevated, too. "Thank God I'm not in Babylon. I'm on Mount Zion, at the center of God's purpose." And when the signs show that it's not so, then the excuses start, selective emphases.