Fuji
06-06-2017, 03:59 PM
Guys, this is a bit crazy. I may be overthinking but please tell me your opinions.
So me and some friends went to check out an apartment. When I arrived, the manager said that unfortunately it's no longer available. He insisted to take us to another apartment, so I said ok.
So I entered into this alternative apartment. I looked around and do you know what was the first thing that I saw?
"Holy Bible. New Testament." I was so happy because praise the Lord the tenant is a Christian. Then it continues, "recovery version".
Please know that where I live is not somewhere like Texas or California or Taiwan. The LC is very very small but you can see they try every effort to grow in terms of numbers.
It's funny. Normally when I see someone with a Bible, I'm overjoyed. But I was disturbed when I saw this Bible. The aching memories in my heart came back. It was hard for me. And it's the only thing that I could see: the apartment was quite messy yet the Bible was sitting right there at the most obvious place. I couldn't focus as this recovery version Bible reminded me of the prevalent exclusiveness and pride of LC. Sure, the Rcv Bible may have its strength but always believing their footnotes are the best, their translation is the best... No...When I was in the LC there was only one brother who would sometimes considered using other translations during meetings. It's such a disturbing feeling that I asked the Lord why? This must not be a coincidence.
And since I'm not in the LC officially now, the feeling of "LC is the unique church and probably the only true church" surprisingly came back when I saw the recovery version. This was a common mindset of many when I was in LC, despite I tried hard to resist it (as said earlier I decided to leave to "flee" from temptation lol). So I thought, huh? God are you putting this recovery version here to warn me to return to the LC? (I believe if I tell any LC friends or members that this happened, they would be quite confident it's God calling me to return to "the Recovery")
It seems like God knew what was in my mind then. As I walked out in confusion, it's funny that I ran into a sister of my church within 10 minutes. I have *never* run into any of brothers and sisters on the street outside of church meetings. I saw her smile and I was full of joy. I asked the Lord, huh, so now this is your way of reassuring me that the body of Christ is definitely not exclusive! The Lord is humorous!
One thing however is that this Recovery Bible was still wrapped in plastic cover when I saw it, so I wonder if someone actually gave it to this tenant or that he ordered it online. So there may be a chance he's not even a believer yet?
Anyways,I just have no peace whenever I think about just letting it go because inside, an instinct (that I hope is my spiritual instinct) kept bugging me to say something. The manager's info on this apartment allows me to have access to this apartment owner. I want to tell this person so badly to be careful if he's meeting with the LC. I am not trying to ask him to leave - I hope he can grow tremendously and cherish the saints - but I just want to tell him to be aware of the exclusiveness and pride in LC, and do not take the route of worshipping the ministry and Lee, because when I look back on my own journey, although I have learned many things from LC, there are many wounds of mine that are still taking time to heal. I wish they didn't happen in a way. It's painful. I am not trying to intervene with his life but I don't want this brother/seeker to experience any emotional damage or spiritual pride. ***Especially also after reading many of you guys' stories here.***
When I finally decided to share my story here few weeks ago, it's also because of the same instinct. I have been reading this forum for years but it's that instinct that suddenly and assuringly moved me to share my story here, and I'm so glad I did.
What should I do? I do hope to reach out to this person to share with him my lessons in the LC! I don't think this is a coincidence at all! Maybe I'm overly obsessive, but it's my own wounds that make me want to look out for others or perhaps I should just pray and let God handle it.
So me and some friends went to check out an apartment. When I arrived, the manager said that unfortunately it's no longer available. He insisted to take us to another apartment, so I said ok.
So I entered into this alternative apartment. I looked around and do you know what was the first thing that I saw?
"Holy Bible. New Testament." I was so happy because praise the Lord the tenant is a Christian. Then it continues, "recovery version".
Please know that where I live is not somewhere like Texas or California or Taiwan. The LC is very very small but you can see they try every effort to grow in terms of numbers.
It's funny. Normally when I see someone with a Bible, I'm overjoyed. But I was disturbed when I saw this Bible. The aching memories in my heart came back. It was hard for me. And it's the only thing that I could see: the apartment was quite messy yet the Bible was sitting right there at the most obvious place. I couldn't focus as this recovery version Bible reminded me of the prevalent exclusiveness and pride of LC. Sure, the Rcv Bible may have its strength but always believing their footnotes are the best, their translation is the best... No...When I was in the LC there was only one brother who would sometimes considered using other translations during meetings. It's such a disturbing feeling that I asked the Lord why? This must not be a coincidence.
And since I'm not in the LC officially now, the feeling of "LC is the unique church and probably the only true church" surprisingly came back when I saw the recovery version. This was a common mindset of many when I was in LC, despite I tried hard to resist it (as said earlier I decided to leave to "flee" from temptation lol). So I thought, huh? God are you putting this recovery version here to warn me to return to the LC? (I believe if I tell any LC friends or members that this happened, they would be quite confident it's God calling me to return to "the Recovery")
It seems like God knew what was in my mind then. As I walked out in confusion, it's funny that I ran into a sister of my church within 10 minutes. I have *never* run into any of brothers and sisters on the street outside of church meetings. I saw her smile and I was full of joy. I asked the Lord, huh, so now this is your way of reassuring me that the body of Christ is definitely not exclusive! The Lord is humorous!
One thing however is that this Recovery Bible was still wrapped in plastic cover when I saw it, so I wonder if someone actually gave it to this tenant or that he ordered it online. So there may be a chance he's not even a believer yet?
Anyways,I just have no peace whenever I think about just letting it go because inside, an instinct (that I hope is my spiritual instinct) kept bugging me to say something. The manager's info on this apartment allows me to have access to this apartment owner. I want to tell this person so badly to be careful if he's meeting with the LC. I am not trying to ask him to leave - I hope he can grow tremendously and cherish the saints - but I just want to tell him to be aware of the exclusiveness and pride in LC, and do not take the route of worshipping the ministry and Lee, because when I look back on my own journey, although I have learned many things from LC, there are many wounds of mine that are still taking time to heal. I wish they didn't happen in a way. It's painful. I am not trying to intervene with his life but I don't want this brother/seeker to experience any emotional damage or spiritual pride. ***Especially also after reading many of you guys' stories here.***
When I finally decided to share my story here few weeks ago, it's also because of the same instinct. I have been reading this forum for years but it's that instinct that suddenly and assuringly moved me to share my story here, and I'm so glad I did.
What should I do? I do hope to reach out to this person to share with him my lessons in the LC! I don't think this is a coincidence at all! Maybe I'm overly obsessive, but it's my own wounds that make me want to look out for others or perhaps I should just pray and let God handle it.